i want freedom not a strees and controlet...

i don't like to follow what you saying...
i already growth up...i know what i was doing and what is wrong...please believe me...
i can choose the best to solve my problem in my life and future...i nope a children already..i have my own opinion and thinking...can u respect me?

newly,just i alone go to school...first ,because my mum la...she sure don't let me 'ponteng 'so many days...so i just compel want to school...but without conceive of my mind,when i want to school i can concentrate to do my homework and tuition revision...maybe nobody chat with me and talk with me...but this is nope bad thing...cause i can faster do finish it and relax...but my friends didn't went to school,,,i always let bully by other...that 'hei ren zhen'!no manner! bully me!!!'beh tahan' already...this is already second time...please think clearly...i not a gentle people and a kind people...but i can say i have a comity people...i am keep silent not mean i am loser...if i scolded you.its mean i was angry and you were excessive...don't said i not comprehend you,you want people respect you and comprehend you,firstly you respect and comprehend back people 1...world is like that...then i think i also no need to comprehend you...seem like you ,just is degenerate of community only...

exam

i think nobody love it but still want to face it and solve it...


exam result
will scare will excited to get it...


exam result vs result...
when we are decide something,we must make sure it don't let you repent...'times and tide waits no man' mean time is no waiting who...

if comprehend me,then you will know why i using pink colour...
as a summary,when human is growth up want to dare and bother all the problem in our life...that problem not only one is many...gambateh la...

fault...

this is my fault???
or i think too much ?
if can i think the fact no happened....
i hate the feeling,like i don't know i can do what and i can think what...
the fact is i can control...i hat myself walk into on your life...i interrupt your life...
i feel sorry...very sorry...i know when i say sorry is already no useful...but i just want to say sorry to you...that all...
i think this is no my fault,actually is you think too much...actually i don know what r u thinking...sometimes no only u feel tired,ok?i also feel tired to face you...haizzz...

难度...

世界上出现了很多高难度的问题。。。

但爱上了一个人，不管他是好是坏。。。你都会去包容，去体谅。。。（这就是一个难度啦）

当你对一个人厌倦了，你是否会继续跟他在一起？？？（这是高难度的选择）

而我，为什么会这么难忘记你？？？

忘记你是一种难度，就当以为自己已经把你渐渐的忘了。。。

但每当你的出现，你会影响到我的想法。。。为什么忘记你会这么的难？？？

或许是我只找的吧？？？明知道你是很难很难才可以忘记他。。。

而我就好像你们常常说的蠢或笨的，执著的相信能让你忘记之前的一切。。。我是不是太笨了？？？

当我看见你send的信息给我的朋友，内容看了。。。

第一的感觉是吓到，

第二是伤心。。。

为什么不能忘记为何又还要接受？？？

你只会一直说对不起！！！可是你真得明白真正的对不起的意思吗？

如果说太多次就变成没什么意义了吧？？？（我是这么的觉得）

到最后，你还是你，而我却不是哪个我了。。。

不懂他给你深刻的事情是什么，但你明明还是在意他就应该告诉他。。。

最少你好有一个机会，虽然那个机会是很小很小。。。

正如你以前所说的，喜欢一个人就要让他开心就好。。。或许他需要你。。。

不懂你还记不记得。。。finally,只要你开心就好了。。。

i feel warm....

i feel warm!!!in the morning i ate breakfast with my friends....they so worry about me...they said me dwn stress and be more happy...because i am a funny ppl and ki siao ppl...i very thank for them...i know i am wrong,because i show a bad mood in front of them,i think this is false....they are my friends how i can do it...sorry r...all my best friends...now i waiting my friend come and together go 2 play badminton...i dwn think again that bad thing...i want forget and i will forget it...

my laughter...

where r my laughter and my mood???they left me too far already...i lazy to find it and tired to solve....i don know i suddenly became like that...i know my friends will feel scare and worry...i want to say sorry to all of you...maybe give me some time to rest...i need rest...because i stress...

TODAY
today teacher announce the exam result...i know this time exam result ,i sure get a bad result...because i really no mood to study...i also no cannily...so all the subject marks is very low...first time my result like that...so what can i do?...i am TIRED now...don want to write more already...

give up...

can i give up to study?got any way?
yesterday i suddenly thinking study life is no suitable for me...then i make a joke with my friends...so funny...i said,can i go to do a chicken mother...haha...after they heard it,they laugh...further more i also laugh...i don't know why i suddenly can said like that...i think i was study too much so the effect like that jor...haha...
during makroekonomi lesson,let you guess doing what???i think you will never guess it...i was writing an essay ,topic about the benefit of chicken mother...wakaka...so zha dao izzit?haha...
exam is coming soon,but i no feeling with excited...because i already prepare for fail it...
because i cant keep up with my course...haizzz....no mood continus writing...sad..

tomorrow...

i think 2moro i will very tired la...because go to ipoh tuition...i don't know why ,i got heart to go there tuition...maybe i already become crazy...now i am doing my homework mathematic...but i don know how to do also...
today go out is very boring...go to school think can play badminton...but all the place already got people are playing...when i saw it,i feel very humdrum...so waste my time le...haizzz...never mind la...
why the fucker people,i always saw him de...fuck...!!!when me post comment for my band friends then he also post comment,but always is me finish post comment and he just post...can u don't dog ma!!!follow me...fucker....go to die la

EXAM RRR!!!

oh my god...exam is coming soon....how to prepare???how how how???so many problem and question, i also havn't finish solve it...who can help me??? i agree i was using too much time to play and to waste...but this is already is my custom...i want change also got some challenges and difficult...

INTERACT CLUB
wah sai...this club really busy and full of challenges...i am a treasurer in this club...so i got a lot of stress...specially now,because all the money of funding is saving on my hand...i scare lost it...haha...but never mind la...just a while receive it...
i am very bo song some of interact member,i dont know why they can say like that...
firstly,he also is a treasurer,but all of the treasurer thing is doing by me...what happen with him ,i dont know...but in the installation ,he is an art director...but the thing also want me help him ...wah...i think he can go 2 die already lo...what also don't want to do...i ask he go to fund...he reply me cant/dwn/why le?i think he die is better than he live ...he is a boy and adult...why he still like a children.i really don't know what can he do...haizzz...never mind la...i think nowadays all of the boys is like that de...

i try my best to do...

i try my best to search my future life...
i will try to improve my mistake on my school subject...specially is mathematics...i like that mathematics subject very well...but i lost my way in this subject newly...
I feel stress when to do exercise of mathematics because i dont know how to do it...i feel helpless...now i just set in form6,but i already feel difficult to cover and solve it...So now i just can try my best only...If cant get a good result also enough...Because i already do my best to get it...

i try my best to do myself...
i try to bring up my standard...try to study hard...try to do my homework...i also try to learn somethings to improve my knowledge...i no a very well student but i no stupid guy...i got feeling and ability to learn what is happen environmental...

gambateh...

if you want...

If you want like that ,i cant control you lo...
If you want think like that,then how can i advise you de...right?
Newly,i really feel tired,stress,unhappy,no mood and other...But what can i do...?
I still insist on my life...Still insist on my study life...Cause i void choose and change...
haizzz...
Today my friends laugh me again...Cause when i speaking got some mistake...like say wroong'yin'...I feel unhappy until want cry liao lo...I know i cant speak properly got some effect of my tooth...But that tooth nope me want de lo...ok?...If all of you want laugh then laugh lo...But can care emotion of mine ma???Me also got self-respecting de...please...

I hate myself...
I hate myself is weak...
I hate myself no clever...
I hate myself cant control my emotion in front of you all...
I hate myself cant do well in my study subject...
I hate myself got any opporunity let all of you laugh...
I HATE I HATE..............

suppose to abandon...???

Suddenly,i suppose to abandon study form6 ma???
Suddenly,i feel scare and feel form6 is very hard to study...
Although,i struggle to study hard and do what is homework given by the teacher...
But i also feel no enough to face the form6 exam...
Because i think they dont want how to teach us...
They teach the subject all is memorise...Just always ask we to remind then can pass...haizzz...
TUITION is better...But i always go to tuition,my mother sure to ask me the same question...
The question is'u can study de ma if not go 2 work la,dwn waste time'...
If you are me...Can i ask you got what feeling and what respon ma???
So toilsome lo...haizzz...
So that,i suppose to abandon my study life ma???
Sure i go to work ma???

i feel scare....

i feel scare to study
i feel scare to exam
i feel scare to speaking english
i feel scare in front of friend...
First,i feel scare to study because my basic is no very good...so some subject i feel operose when study...I feel scare to exam,because i scare my friend ask my result...i scare they laugh me...
I feel scare when i am speaking english...I dont know my friend so happy to laugh me when i am speaking wrong words or my pronunciation is wrong...But i already try to speaking properly and use my bravura to speaking...i hope they dont launghing me again...I feel scare my friend,i feel they already got some change in their habit...I dont know why???Sometimes i feel them very selfish,and they see you is what type of person then they teach you de way is different...I feel them is snooty me...But never mind,because i know a normal people will start change everytime ever although she or he is a kind person...
I believe people is always change de animal....

tired...

i feel very tired lo...
tired in my life
tired in my heart
tired in my laugh
tired in my thinking
tired in my homework...
i tired to say anything,because i always think all of you is understand me...
But i feel disappointed...
Actually i always laugh,so all of you think me is a funny and happy person...
But all of you are dont know sometime me is unhappy and feel sad....
But i still want smile in front of all of you...
Cause i dont want let all of you see my thinking and my feeling...
i hope i can always make my friends happy...
unhappy also want live,happy also want live...
So i choose happy to live...
But i also want time to rest to control myself...
Thank you all treat me when i am sad and give me supportion....
thank o....muack....

sorry my friend....

i feel sorry to my friend...She very believe me,but 竟然出卖她。。。
对不起。。。我不懂老师真的酱狗。。。我不懂她为什么要说出去的。。。他答应我听了就算的。。。可是他没有做到。。。我真的不知道要如何去面对你。。。只能说一声抱歉。。。你会接受吗？？？
then i oso feel disappointed 2 teacher...y u want me difficulty。。。you know you do like that,i will lose my friend de...we r aldready 10 year friend jor....y teacher u make me like that....my friend aldready dwn choi me liao...what can i do...???u teach me la...but u just say nvm la...let it pass away...when i heard you say like that...i think and i feel u are very very no have responsibility lo...y can u say like that ka...who can teach me wat can i do...i hope my friend can forgive me....