suppose to abandon...???

Suddenly,i suppose to abandon study form6 ma???
Suddenly,i feel scare and feel form6 is very hard to study...
Although,i struggle to study hard and do what is homework given by the teacher...
But i also feel no enough to face the form6 exam...
Because i think they dont want how to teach us...
They teach the subject all is memorise...Just always ask we to remind then can pass...haizzz...
TUITION is better...But i always go to tuition,my mother sure to ask me the same question...
The question is'u can study de ma if not go 2 work la,dwn waste time'...
If you are me...Can i ask you got what feeling and what respon ma???
So toilsome lo...haizzz...
So that,i suppose to abandon my study life ma???
Sure i go to work ma???

i feel scare....

i feel scare to study
i feel scare to exam
i feel scare to speaking english
i feel scare in front of friend...
First,i feel scare to study because my basic is no very good...so some subject i feel operose when study...I feel scare to exam,because i scare my friend ask my result...i scare they laugh me...
I feel scare when i am speaking english...I dont know my friend so happy to laugh me when i am speaking wrong words or my pronunciation is wrong...But i already try to speaking properly and use my bravura to speaking...i hope they dont launghing me again...I feel scare my friend,i feel they already got some change in their habit...I dont know why???Sometimes i feel them very selfish,and they see you is what type of person then they teach you de way is different...I feel them is snooty me...But never mind,because i know a normal people will start change everytime ever although she or he is a kind person...
I believe people is always change de animal....

tired...

i feel very tired lo...
tired in my life
tired in my heart
tired in my laugh
tired in my thinking
tired in my homework...
i tired to say anything,because i always think all of you is understand me...
But i feel disappointed...
Actually i always laugh,so all of you think me is a funny and happy person...
But all of you are dont know sometime me is unhappy and feel sad....
But i still want smile in front of all of you...
Cause i dont want let all of you see my thinking and my feeling...
i hope i can always make my friends happy...
unhappy also want live,happy also want live...
So i choose happy to live...
But i also want time to rest to control myself...
Thank you all treat me when i am sad and give me supportion....
thank o....muack....

sorry my friend....

i feel sorry to my friend...She very believe me,but 竟然出卖她。。。
对不起。。。我不懂老师真的酱狗。。。我不懂她为什么要说出去的。。。他答应我听了就算的。。。可是他没有做到。。。我真的不知道要如何去面对你。。。只能说一声抱歉。。。你会接受吗？？？
then i oso feel disappointed 2 teacher...y u want me difficulty。。。you know you do like that,i will lose my friend de...we r aldready 10 year friend jor....y teacher u make me like that....my friend aldready dwn choi me liao...what can i do...???u teach me la...but u just say nvm la...let it pass away...when i heard you say like that...i think and i feel u are very very no have responsibility lo...y can u say like that ka...who can teach me wat can i do...i hope my friend can forgive me....